Modern & contemporary fiction (post c 1945)
Nils and Ari love each other. But somehow, Nils rejects Ari again and again, until someday, Ari breaks up with him. But why, for God's sake, do all his love affairs end up so quickly? So far, he accepted it that way, but with Ari everything has felt so different. Nils knows why he is reserved, but he cannot change. He simply cannot talk with anybody about what happened back then when he was only twelve years old, even though he can exactly remember those nights: His stepfather came into his room, whenever the two of them were alone - Nils cannot escape his memories, let alone talk about his past... Looking for some distraction, he hades a summer in Sweden. There he meets not only the sweet Elin, but also Svante. On a balmy summer evening Nils finds out that Svante also has been mistreated and with him, he learns to speak about his feelings.